Saturday, August 16, 2008
Doomsday: My Senior Life- The Drama
While Rihanna's Take A Bow is being played on the radio, while my cousin is reciting her A-B-Cs, while my perspiration keeps rolling down my face, while everyone is watching my favorite TV show and while I'm singing "As I sing my heart's thanksgiving, and my eyes look heavenward. How the stars you flung like jewels, bid your welcome, shine your light. As I marvel at your moonrise, I'm in awe, yet I ask. What am I that you should love me? And hold me as your dearest love of all.", I'm in one corner, thinking what would my senior life be despite of my low scores in Advanced Algebra, Calculus, Physics and Trigonometry. I'm really in a peaceful mode even though the surrounding is noisy.
People would always ask me if how I do. I always answer them that I'm not okay and absolutely telling myself to feel alright for the sake that the people around me will not be worry about my condition. It's just that it's really difficult to feel okay and feel happy and contented. And sometimes, it's really difficult to dry up those salty tears. I guess, I need more luck right now. I need to study more than ever. I need to have self-confidence and self-discipline. I don't want to be depressed or get weak because of the things that kept on bothering me especially my grades and remarks in school.
Right now, I'm asking myself, "Where did I get wrong?". I'm in little awe, telling myself to stand up and be strong in facing my problems in life. I'm convincing myself to live life to the fullest and telling myself that life is really short. I know that everything's alright but I feel that everything is not complete. I become more emotional these days, reflecting alone in my room.
My drama causes a lot of time. Right now, I'm convincing myself not to cry because these are just ordinary things in life. I'm not alone in this lonely planet. This is not yet the end of the world. Well, there are still a lot of opportunities around. I'll be more than myself when I grow up. I am the real me. I believe that I am strong and I have a determination in life. Thank you, guys. I hope everything will be alright soon :)
Labels: Advanced Algebra, Calculus, Drama, Exams, Physics, School, Teenage Life, Trigonometry
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